The beginning of this new year is perfect to look at myself. Not to write out resolutions, I stopped doing that last year, but to take a good look at who I am and what I’m doing right now. It would be even more wonderful to use this post next year to see where I am then. And yes, I know it’s much more interesting to add pictures, and I might one day, but for now: enjoy my words!
I’m still as impulsive as ever. For instance, on April 16th, I told Anneke I would love to visit her again. On April 19th I had booked and paid for my tickets to Namibia in December. Also, in a matter of days, I decided I would not only start religious studies, but also a teacher education. Both without actual plans to do something with it, but ‘for fun’. Just like the sign language course I graduated in May. It’s obvious that learning was a big hobby of mine in 2012 too.
Scouting was another hobby that took up a lot of time and helped me grow. Not only did I lead the girls, I also made sure I had the skills to take them on a week-long camp. I participated in several leadership activities and a formation camp for leaders. The girls taught me so much about patience, love, kindness and self-sacrifice. Just like I think everyone should stay a few months at home taking care of their little brother and the house (as I did in September 2008 – April 2009), I also believe everyone should organize a week for children and take care of them, be the one responsible for them and love them. It’s hard but it’s one of the most rewarding things I’ve ever done.
Other hobbies this year included mostly watching films and DVD’s from the library. To be honest, I spent way too much time on that (luckily, they were free, so I didn’t spend money on it). But I also sang in our church’s choir, was responsible for a children’s service once a month, sat in our church’s “team” (where all the decision are made), helped start up a bible study group, read books, babysat my brother, helped my mom out around the house and more.
Religion wise, 2012 was most certainly a year of growth. As I was still a neophyte for part of the year, Lent was a special period: it was the first time I went through it as a Catholic. I had the honor to assist our bishop as an altar server for almost all of the masses during holy week and it was an amazing experience. Even after Easter, when I wasn’t a neophyte anymore, I learned so much. I grew in various ways and I’ve started visiting the traditional Latin mass more often. Even though I like the reverence of it, I’m glad I have our ‘normal’ parish to come home to. Another aspect of the Catholic Church that really enriched me this year was the sacrament of confession. Taking a good hard look at myself, sharing it with God through the priest, being invited to work on it and getting to leave with a clean slate has really changed me. There’s still so much room for improvement, but at least I know I’m working on it and going in the right direction.
2012 is also the year where I started trying to get forward by going backwards and tackling some stuff from the past first. Not much progress there yet, but I hope it will come this year. Maybe this year will bring a boyfriend too? For the moment, I enjoy seeing my friends together. I had the most wonderful time seeing Anneke and Hartmut being happy together and every time I visit Cléo and Jan, I can’t help but smile at their love for each other. 2012 is also the year of ‘the boyfriend’ for my sister, which I am so happy about. He’s just a wonderful young man and he makes her so happy! Siem loves him too which is, of course, a big bonus.
Work-wise, this has been an interesting year. In April, I became a published author. Of course, I didn’t write a whole book, but I did write a few chapters, which were actually published in a real book. Instead of the expected feeling of pride, I felt mostly relieved when the book came out. Finally, it was here! Also in 2012, I went from three projects to only one in a matter of weeks. Though I’m still responsible for the two projects, there’s hardly any work to do, mainly reprints and keeping the website ea up to date. Luckily, I received two new books to work on and I’ve enjoyed getting to know the subjects. I still enjoy my work a lot. I love my colleagues, the bike ride to my work, my boss and of course the work itself. It’s also special that I can work closely with my mother and a good friend on one of the books.
At the moment, I’ve been living at a little apartment for several years and I love it. I had been wondering this year if I should buy a place to live, but to be honest, I don’t think I could ever find something as nice and as cheap as my current home. At the moment the plan is to live here for at least two more years. As usual, my plants are pretty dead, but I was able to revive one. My herbs are doing okay-ish, as long as I don’t take them indoors. Ichtje and Pipa, my goldfishes, are still alive, even though I barely clean their tank and they ate every plant in there over a year ago.
Other living beings in my life that I adore: my precious goddaughter who learned to walk and is starting to talk, my precious godchild that will be born in six weeks, my awesome brother who learned to read and many other little ones that make every moment bright! 2012 was also the year Kate finally went home to her family, together with her now-sister Dasha.
In short: 2012 was full of fun hobbies and interesting classes. I still love my work a lot and my family and friends are amazing!